Minus 28

Last night I watched I Used To Be Fat. To sum it up, it was about this 18-year-old girl who was over weight and decided to get a trainer to help her lose weight. Her motivation was that she wanted to start college, not being the fat girl. I found this show interesting because, she spent 111 days working out. No gimmicks, no cash prize at the end. She did it for herself. It made me think of my own weight lose this past year. Saying it wasn't easy would be an understatement. There were many days I just wanted to come home, eat my chips and call it a night. There are still days where I eat whatever I want. Which I know is fine. I am proud of myself for losing the weight, eating better, and exercising. I feel better, I look better, but most importantly I like me, and I'm doing it for me. I'm not sure what my ideal weight is, but for now I'll work on losing the next 20lbs.

I was talking to The Boy, and I was saying how there are things I want to do. I just don't like telling people. He had a good point. He said if you tell people then your accountable. Being accountable is hard. I think especially for me since, I'm a long time procrastinator, I don't acknowledge when things are going badly, and I live in my little bubble where everything is stupendous. My bubble is starting to crack since I have to stretch my money until I'm done school and get a job. Even the fact that I have four months left of school has me in a little panic. Will I pass all my classes, how long before I find a job, how long until I pay off the debt I've accumulated these past seven months, will life get better.

I am not a fan of waiting to see what happens. Hopefully it will we worth the wait.