Today is such a nice day. I even walked home from the medical lab. I cut through the park to get to my street. It was a little different seeing the park during the day with all the kids running around and people walking their dogs. The only other time I've been to the park was at night with my friend and his dog.

I was talking to the Boy and he was telling me about when he's going on vacation. The first thing out of my mouth was your not going to be here for my birthday. I've felt bad since. I can see how I was being selfish. I'm not even sure if I told him I hope he has fun. I want him to have fun, relax, and do all the tourist things. I've just always looked forward to us doing something for my birthday. I always have a great time and he doesn't get mad when I act like a big kid for the whole day. I just want the "tradition" to continue.

KB has got me thinking about going to the beach. I'm all for going. It was a lot of fun they last time I went with her. I don't go in the water but as long as I have some shade, food and a cold drink I'm good.

I don't know what I'm doing for the summer, but I would like to go camping. I see now why so many go.

Sunny Days

It's almost the end of the month, and I can't wait until it's over. I will need help to make it through the next three weeks, but I know things will only get better.

I've been spending a lot of time by myself lately. For a while I didn't want to have to deal with anyone else or talk about what's going on in my life. Sometimes, the solitude helps me to get things figured out in my head. And I've learned that talking when your full of anger and hate, is not a good idea. I'm still not sure about a lot of things, or even how to deal with this conflict between my head and my heart. I can only take my time and see what lays ahead of me.

I've been itching to do something fun and out of the norm for me. Like, going to the beach, bowling, or going to a party. Why don't people have more house parties. There so much fun.

I have my savings plan all set up. My goal is to save $1,000 by the end of August. I hope I can do it; that way I can turn around and spend it.....lol

Through My Eyes

• who knew you could get a Air Jordan logo as an earring
• strangers have been nice to me this week, and it makes me think that there is still good people left in this world
• sometimes I just want someone to listen
  
• May 8 will be a happy day (hopefully)
• I think I've decide on getting a fish
• I think my neighbours are hard core pot heads
• I can't stand having to watch work video, they make me sleepy
• I'm already tired of having my blood taken
• my appt today did not go as I had wished for
• I've finally done my taxes