Keep Your Head Up

Another weekend has come and gone. Why can't the week go as fast as my weekends. My week was going pretty good until Thursday. Work ended up being insanely busy and half the people in the office were off. On Friday I got into an argument with my boss and got mad so I hanged up the phone in his ear. I hate how he is a big bully and thinks that he can talk to people any way he wants. I take a lot of shit from people but even I have my limits. I just hate work more and more these days. The stress is getting to me and the holiday season is upon us. Which some days I find depressing, while other days it doesn't bother me at all. Working at being happy is a lot harder then it should be. I think so at least.

I had a blast with KB. I miss hanging out with her. She's such a trip to be with. She always listens to what I have to say whether or not she agrees. And tries to cheer me up whenever I'm feeling sad and alone. She's on my list of people I know I'm lucky to have in my life.

The Boy said to me he doesn't know if he's still welcome here. I must admit that hurt hearing him say that. But we talked and I let him know that he's always welcome here, it's just up to him to decide when he is ready to chill here. Until then I have no problems chilling at his house. Even if his house is as cold as outside...lol.

Weekend in Review

This weekend was a lot of fun for the most part. Friday I stayed up late talking with The Boy. And I must say it was refreshing to have a almost normal conversation. We haven't done that in a long time and I didn't realize how much I've missed it. I was also....proud of myself for listening to everything he had to say and not getting mad or becoming defensive. Baby steps.

The rest of the night saw me downtown at 4:00 am and finding my way home rather then stay with a drunk driver.

Saturday was so much fun. I wish I could go to more house parties. Sure I felt some awkward moments but I kept it moving. I can't wait for the next jam.

It's only Tuesday but I'm already looking forward to this weekend and hanging with my girl KB.

Like You'll Never See Me Again

To whom it may concern:

First off I just want to say Happy Birthday you old fart. I hope you have a wonderful day, and that all your celebration plans go smoothly.

I'm glad I'm here to celebrate another year with you and the crew. I know things are not the most comfortable with us at the moment, but hey when have things ever been easy with us. It's weird you said that you feel like I've started to walk away. I've been thinking the same thing about you.

I guess I'm just afraid of loosing everything. What would I do without your support, love, friendship and shoulder to cry on. You always focus on the negative, the bad things that have been done or said. For me the good things surpasses all the bad. Because if they didn't do you think I would still be here.

I'm not even sure where I am going with this post, or why I'm even putting all of this out there. But hey you have always said I was a nerd.

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Deseo que se minas de nuevo

No One

I watched Smokin Aces, and ummmm. I don't even know what to say. I wasn't really expecting too much, but that movie was just trash (I'm a biter yes I know). I want to know who thought it was a good idea to throw away money on that movie. And someone needs to tell Ms.Keys to stick to singing. Have you heard her latest album. I think she's the only reason I would go out and buy a CD, and I haven't bought a CD in over 2 years.

November Rain

I have been kind of sad, cranky, and confused. I'm starting to realize that some relationships are going down the drain. One I'm at my wits ends and basically have decided that I'm just going to let things be. I thought things would get better but they haven't. It just reminds me that you can only depend on yourself. The other relationship, I work hard at, but I don't get what I deserve out of it. I am not treated well and only feel like I'm only good enough up to a point. Even this relationship is making me see that you only have yourself and that people will always disappoint you. (yeah I know life sucks sometimes)
My rock is still there, but now there are too many cracks in it for my liking. What's a girl to do.