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I have learned that crying at work is not a good idea.
I have learned that I am truly all alone now.
I have learned that things don't always work out for the best (that's a load of crap)
I have learned that KB is the greatest BFF(I love you girl.Too bad we aren't lesbians :)
I have learned that my dreams of getting married and having kids is fading more and more as each day goes by.
I have learned that feeling numb to everything really isn't so bad compared to the alternative.
I am glad I am not an alcoholic like my Father, because if I were I would have hit the bottle hard these past few days(but if I had some weed I would have dusted off the old home made bong and given my lungs a workout)
I have no idea of what to do next.
I am glad KB told me not to send the card(you were right it was a bad idea.Oh and that wasn't the worst of my ideas either)
I wonder why things can't be easy for me.
I wonder why I like the movie Win A Date with Tad Hamilton
(maybe because, in the end the boy gets his girls.cheesy yes I know)
I need to stop listening to Throw Some D's and Lost without you so much
I wish I wasn't feeling so lonely and a lone so much ( is that not the same thing?)
I need a hug.

Sorry for the depressing post. I should go to bed now. Night all.