Long Weekend

My long weekend officially started today. I had no work, and all day to do whatever. I finally cleaned my place. Even I am surprised at how clean it is. It wasn't so bad putting a little sweat into making my place look nice. I'm proud of myself for doing it. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am not the biggest fan of cleaning. Tomorrow I plan on relaxing and watching some movies. I might even get dressed and go outside.

He just left a little while ago. I had a really nice time today. Just to be able to sit, talk, and crack jokes reminded me of some of the things I like about him. I hope to have more days like today. No fighting and miscommunication. I woke up at around 6 today. I felt like a kid who gets up early Christmas morning. I just couldn't wait to see him. Enough said.

I must recommend going to Demetre's. I'm not a big desert fan, but that place can make me weak in my knees. Thank God I don't live around the corner from it. If I did, I would probably be 300lbs by the end of summer.

There's some things that I wanna change. Some I can take control of right now, but I'm lazy as hell. Others are a work in progress. I'm slowly bettering my life. Bettering myself. I just can't expect instant results. Things that are important are worth it in the end. I've just gotta work it out.

Happy Victoria Day!!! God bless the Queen, and making it a holiday; so that I don't have to work tomorrow.

Survivor

I just finished watching Survivor. It wasn't as exciting as previous seasons. But they must be doing something right, since it keeps on coming back. I basically spent today chilling. I watched Taking Lives which was okay. It was a decent movie, but I wouldn't we willing to cough up $12 for. Maybe if I was a guy and the thought of seeing Angelina Jolie's breasts would be more of an incentive to go and see the movie.

I was thinking about the last couple of days and it made me think that you can't make a person act a certain way. Just like you can't make them see things that they don't want to. I've thought about saying what's on my mind, but I feel like it would just come across as me being mean and not appreciative. I also feel like if I say anything that may be perceived as a negative comment I would just be casted in the role of a heartless bitch. It was hard the last time this situation came up, but it was easier because the light finally came on, and I didn't have to be so up front about everything. I wish there was a pill I could take so that I wouldn't have to feel anything.

Boys. You can't live with them and you can't shoot them.

Post Game Update

I don't know how I feel about it yet. Was it really a good idea? At least I didn't ask the questions I wanted to ask. I figured I may not want to hear the answer, and it would just seem like I'm groveling. I think yesterday really showed how I am not top of the list in priorities. There is no grand effort to drop everything and talk to me. I wanna talk but I end up getting zzzzzzz instead. I would like some help this weekend but, I know I would just get the same party line. But hey I'm not special anymore and that really hurts me.

Change of Weather

It's nice to get together with a friend, and just hang out. Dinner was great. It really hit the spot. I'm gonna have to shop more at the market. Two steaks for $12 is a really good price. Makes me want to get that bbq even more.

I went and saw Lucky Number Slevin. I didn't have any expectations going in the film, but I walked was fairly impressed. It was a good movie all around, and had a plot twist at the end. Which is always a bonus. Afterwards I went for desert. Which was delicious, and I can't wait to go back. The company I was in, was also exceptional. I guess you could say I'm more than a little smitten with him. :)

I've decided to let it all out. Not sure when, but I do have half of the how figured out. To say I am a little nervous and apprehensive would put it mildly. I just hope it doesn't do more harm than good. Only time will tell.

Boring

There's nothing like spending another Friday night sitting on the couch and watching mindless t.v. If I have anymore fun I may just burst.

Any how, I've decided to get a bra fitting. It's something that is long over due. I've gained some weight and my breasts have gotten bigger, (and if I say they've gotten bigger than they have, since I'm in denial about the size of them) but the bra has stayed the same. Notice how I said bra, and not bra's. That's because I am cheap and currently only own one. Which is another thing I need to change.

I can proudly say I've been drinking water all week. I even stopped buying juice for my house so I would force myself to drink the water at home. It took me 3 days to drink a 1.5L bottle. I know it sounds sad, but hey I've never been a water drinker. Is the flavoured water worse for you?

KB came over again this week. I look forward to our little "date" night. It's nice just to hangout, eat ice cream and talk about each other's relationships. You know how us girls love to talk about boys. I get to meet the boyfriend, which should be interesting. He must be doing something right, if she's always smiling and talking about him. Right?

Sleep

I had a wonderful sleep last night. It's been a long time since I've actually felt rested. I hope the rest of my day goes well.