I Wonder Who Wrote the Book on Love

Do you ever wonder why can't life be simple? It always seems that something happens that throws life a curve ball. Now don't get me wrong I like my life. I've come a long way to become the person I am today. I have my own place, a full time job, my health and people that I can count on. Not everyone can say they have those things. I wonder if certain things happen for a reason. Things that make you stop and think about your life. For me it's usually something that someone says to me that triggers a thought in my head. For example how I don't like to talk about the things that are bothering. Which is probably why I always run away from any sort of conflict. I always let things go on the outside but on the inside I hold on to it until it starts to grow like a cancerous tumor. But that's just part of my make up. It's what makes me, me.

Right now I'm trying to wrap my head around me and the Boy's unique relationship. I've sort of avoided thinking too hard about it at times. I'm just trying to take it all one day at a time. Sure we want to be together but, like he said we are in two different spots right now. For me I've always known what I've wanted, while I think with him he's still trying to figure out how to have what he wants and still be happy and not hurt anyone at the same time. We cannot erase the past and all that happen, but maybe if we are lucky we can make a future together. For now I will continue to think things through and ask those questions that I have yet to ask.

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday people, all this thinking has made my head hurt.