Birthday Count Down

My birthday is on Sunday. It wasn't until a few days ago, that I started looking forward to it. My expectations have lowered since last year. Now as long as the two people I care about remember my birthday than I'll have a good birthday. I won't be able to spend it with both of them, but I've got to accept that not everything remains the same. For those of you who would like to know what's on my wish list. Here it is as follows in no particular order.

1. A car
2. A flip phone from Telus
3. Drapes
4. Someone to fix my bed
5. Backpack
6. Confessions of a Video Vixen by Karrine Steffans
7. The Twelfth Card & The Cold Moon by Jefferey Deaver
8. The Big Bang by Busta Rhymes
9. Shirts for work
10. A vacation
11. Sock & Bras

I'm Dreaming of You Tonight

I've never put much thought into what dreams mean. Maybe it's because I don't dream, or rather I don't remember them. I had an interesting dream this morning. And it went a lil something like this. Hit It!

Me and the Boy were kidnapped and then we got free. We tried to leave by driving away, but the Boy's car wouldn't start. So we stole someone's car and used it to push the car that wasn't working into someone's front door. A man came running out of the house, straight towards the drivers window. The man was yelling and waving his arms asking what are you doing. The Boy's response was to just roll up his window and drive off. While driving I find this chip, sort of like a memory card. I tried putting it into the part where the radio is, but it didn't fit because a computer disk was there instead of a radio. I removed the computer disk and found a stack of money. I turned to the Boy and said I get the bigger cut.

And then I woke up. That was the end of my dream. What do you think? Any comments?

Almost Over

This week went by extremely fast. I managed to keep busy, which helped me a lot since I have a lot on my mind. Between work and the Boy, I've about ready to go postal and bust a cap in someone's ass. I think I'm just going to stay home tomorrow. I've done something every night this week. My ass is not used to that.

How comfortable are you with your body? I think I'm like the majority of women, there's something I'll like to change or I don't like this or that about my body. But at the same time I think I've come along way from where I was. I'm won't be wearing a bikini any time soon, but wearing something that shows my ass is less of a deal to me.

I saw way too many tits today.

Is it A Full Moon

The craziest thing happened to me. I was in a chat room and this girl messages me. We started talking and we realized we live in the same building. Ain't that some crazy shit. While talking to her, I kept looking over my shoulder as if someone was gonna jump out from behind my couch with a camera saying gotcha. We met up in the lobby and talked some more.

I was talking to this guy on the weekend and he asked me when was the last time I has sex. I told him and his response was with a girl or a guy. I told him what kind of question is that. He was like you never know now a days. So me being the facetie person that I can be (personally I blame the freshie in me) I asked him if he sleeps with men. It made me think of all the special programs they have about black men being on the DL, but still having girlfriends and wives. I guess in this day and age you just don't really know a persons true colours.

And to J.Hunt, I have not received my note yet. Blame you know who. Thanks for tuning in each week to get the latest happenings of my so called love life. I'm also disappointed that you didn't come and see me while you were here last weekend. Remind me never to say nice things about you ever again. :)

Mini Update

The talk is over. I'm feeling a little bit better, but at the same time worried about whether or not things will work out. I felt like I had an Oprah moment. All the signs where there, I just didn't push hard enough to get to the truth. I've realized I'm addicted. I'm in need of a sponsor for this to work. I can't even go two days without a fix. I don't know what to do. I'm going to have to sleep on it. Now if only my body could stop shaking long enough for my ass to get in bed.

Thanks for all the luv and support KB. Your like the white sister I never had. :) I think of you as family. Luv you gurl.

An Angry Man Opens His Mouth & Shuts Up His Eyes

It is interesting how something so simple can, have such a profound impact on me. If you have ever seen that episode of the Simpsons where Lisa yells at Ralph about not liking him and Bart slows down the replay to show exactly when Ralphs heart breaks, basically sums up how I felt at that moment. I felt like someone had knocked me over.

If you are wondering about the pictures, they are of my fridge and freezer. All I have to say is. PLEASE FEED MY FRIDGE. Donations can be made to the following address.......................