Another Day Another Struggle

I've been feeling a lot better lately. I don't feel as alone and shitty as before. I'm not 100% okay. But I do have less dark days. I'm not sure what has caused the tide to change. Maybe I've just been talking more about how I feel lately. With me you can never know.

Everyday there is some sort of struggle. I struggle to get more than 5 hours of sleep. I struggle to get up and go to work in the mornings. I struggle to curve my rudeness, and what I think is a slowly brewing jealousy. I struggle with wanting what I can't have. I struggle with wanting my own little family, but realizing that won't happen since I won't end up with my dream guy. I struggle with wanting to say I love you all the time. I struggle with finding what makes me happy, and finding my place in this world. I struggle with getting older, and having so many things that I would like to do.

And so the struggle continues.