I'm Going Down

After my talk with the Boy last night, it got me thinking about how I act. Do I treat him differently and if not should I? Do I act like nothing has changed? I wonder what he's been thinking and feeling about all of this. Maybe he knows too much about how I feel. All of this has got me rethinking my plan. And is it wrong for me to still think about kissing him? Hmmm

Certain things have not been said. Which makes me feel isolated and alone. As if I'm out there on a ledge looking down.

I need some time to get away.