Round and Round

I'm not sure what to do. My feelings change from one day to the next. One thing I do know is that I shouldn't make a decision based on anger and hurt. It was weird realizing that I am no longer special. I'm just like everyone else in the shuffle. That was not easy for me to come to terms with. Not even sure I really have. I think I have changed. Some people agree and others disagree. I think I need a deadline before all of this makes me ill. I need to retain some sort of dignity and self respect in the end. A lot of it comes down to me feeling good about myself, and right now I feel like crap. But me feeling like crap is based on others treatment of me, which make me think I have some serious issues here.

I'm off to work. If I can make it throughout the week at work and not shoot anyone I would be deserving of a medal.