The Holidays

I've been thinking a lot about the holidays. Not about who's present I still have to get, or wrap. But rather about being a lone. I'm starting to understand how the holidays can be very depressing if you have no one to share it with. I was hoping to get an invite from the Boy, but that seems wrong for so many different reasons. Luckily I got an e-mail from my girl today, inviting me for Christmas dinner. It's nice to know that there is someone out there who has my back.
As for me and the Boy. Things are okay. Were still taking our time and seeing where things end up. It's hard at times trying to be respectful of him, and doing what I want. What I want is to be with him, be able to hug and kiss him, to say the words I love you. But you don't always get your hearts desire. Will I get what I want or am I just prolonging the inevitable?