Yesterday Is Gone

I got my fix the other day. I hear his voice and I just melt and think of yesterdays. The days that held stolen kisses and spending Sundays in bed watching t.v. I'm only okay if I am prepared, if not then I just feel like crying. My heart is too open, and it hurts too much to think about it sometimes. I'm not even sure if I am entirely dealing with this new non relationship. In the back of my head I believe this is all just a bad dream. As if I can just click my heels two times and say there's no place like home. There's no place like home.

Today was a crappy day. Work was beyond busy and stress filled. On the way home I ran into HIM. Saying it was awkward would be a great understatement. It breaks my heart that after three years I can't even be looked at in the eye. What is a girl to do, besides cry.