Worries

The search for a new place is on. I have until the end of May, so if anyone has any suggestions feel fee to let me know. It's gonna be weird living on my own. No t.v., no computer. If I give up my cell phone does that mean I'm half way to being Amish? I'm worried about how things will be between me and the Boy after he goes back home. Will there be relief that he doesn't have to deal with me everyday, or a little sadness? And has living with me caused him to think that maybe I'm not that perfect girl for him, that maybe he could do better. Maybe I worry too much, or maybe it's all in my head. I'll just have to wait. When all is said and done I hope I can look back and laugh at how silly I was.