Sadness

I couldn't sleep last night. I was confused, upset and I woke up feeling the same way. Why do I always take things to heart. This reminds me of English class in high school. Talking about Macbeth's tragic flaw. Maybe this is my tragic flaw.

Why

1) Why are people already jammin to Christmas songs?
2) Why do guys think wearing a pink Yankee hat with a matching pink striped dress shirt, is hot?
3) Why can't black people be on time?
4) Why do black business owners always wonder why they go out of business, when they can't even open up on time?
5) Why did I spell Cox, Kocks?
6) Why don't more people leave comments?
7) Why don't we see eye to eye on how a family should act on special occasions?
8) Why am I looking forward to the banquet, when it's not even my team?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIUS

This weekend was really long. Usually it's I blink my eye and it's Monday morning. Saturday night I went to Mother Tucker with the Boy and his family. It was nice just leaving all my troubles at home and enjoying a night out. After dinner I went back to the Boy's house. As per usually I had a nice little nap. He pointed out to me that the reason that I always fall asleep is because I'm so relaxed with him. I think that's a good thing. And besides who else would I be that comfortable with. People at my part time job were talking about x-mas, which got me thinking about gifts; because I had to get the Boy his birthday present ( I got him a mp3 player), then there's x-mas, then our anniversary (our 2nd for those keeping count). I gotta spread out the gift ideas here. Does anyone have any suggestions?

Post Talk

Last night I told the Boy my thoughts on our current situation. I'm not really sure how I feel. I feel a little bit better because, that dark cloud is no longer hovering over ours heads. But at the same time has anything really changed; and is there anything that either one of us can do to avoid this vicious cycle that we have been in as of lately. I just hope things get better.

What To Do

The last couple of weeks have been shitty. Me and the Boy have been fighting, and I can't catch the bus to save my life. Even the one day that I caught the bus on time, I thought ok I'm off to a good start until I was going to get the bus home that I realized I forgot my bus pass in my desk at work. I had THE BIG talk with my mom today. It went basically how I expected it to go. Now it's on to the talk with the Boy. It's during times like these that I'm always afraid I'll say something or do something that will make him say so long it's been fun while it lasted. Why can't I just be a bear and hibernate for the winter.

Hmmmm

I've been having what I like to call a girl moment. I've been nagging, repeating questions, and then getting upset by the answer. The one thing I don't what to be known as is a nagger. I don't like it when it's done to me, so I try not to do it to others. I've also been slacking at being a good girlfriend. Why didn't I ask what's wrong? or can I help in anyway?. I just thought those questions would be answered on it's own given sometime. Why do we assume when we know we shouldn't? I hope tomorrow ends on a good note.