Questions

1. Can a person be extremely smart and dumb as hell at the same time?
2. Where did I go wrong with my life?
3. Does a person ever get over the fear of the unknown?
4. How can you fix things if your not 100% sure what's wrong in the first place?

I've been up since 5:45 AM. The day went by extremely fast today. That tends to happen when your wrapping meat all day. Maybe I'll learn how to go to bed early sometime in the near future, instead of staying up past 12. I work part time but put in a 40 hour work week. Something is wrong with this picture. I feel like a change is needed in my life. Such as a full time job, having more than $20 to my name, and maybe a place to call my own or even a car; but that last one would require me to have a valid driving license so I think I'll scratch that off my list. I would also like to become more physically active(besides having sex I mean :) ]but since I only seem to have any energy or motivation to work out are during the wee hours of the night; that doesn't seem like that will be happening either. Maybe I should start off with some more realistic/reachable goals and work my way up.

It's only Tuesday and I am already thinking about the weekend. I would actually like to do something. Something being me leaving my house. I would really like to see the Boy, I would even spend the 2 hours on the bus there and back, but I feel that suggesting a Friday get together would just take us back to the whole I don't have time you know football, school, blah, blah, blah. And why must I be the one to do the suggesting. I would just feel as if we were moving backwards instead of forwards. What's a girl to do?

Thoughts of a PMSing Girl

Being a girl is hard. Sometimes I think it would be easier to be a guy. Life as a girl entails your bra sticking to you during the summer months, cramps and back aches when you get your period. And that menstrual cycle doesn't end till menopause. Which for some women is from your mid 50's and up. What do guys get, some wet dreams and waking up with a hard on. If you can sustain an erection and bust a nut without the help of a lil blue pill, then you should be thankful.

On another note, me and the Boy cleared the air on some things I wasn't happy about. Mainly the whole I'll holla at you after football season. One of the things I love about the Boy is that he knows that it's best to let me be about certain things. In the end I'll say what's on my mind when I'm ready. Getting in my face doesn't work. If I don't want to talk about it I will give an evasive answer or just ignore the question all together. It's worked so well so far for me. Why fix it, if it's not broken.

Journey to the Mall

Another busy day in the life of me. Since my mother will nag on me until I do what she wanted me to do since last month, I decided to go and get a virus scan today. I went to the City Centre and checked out Best Buy. $70 later and I had my McAfee virus scan. And you best believe I plan on sending out the rebate. It has been donkey years since I've been to the City Centre. It has changed so much. Stores have moved, new stores are coming in. It's about time it got a face lift. Following the Boy's suggestion I went into some jewelry stores and looked at some engagement rings. They were nice, but nothing that said buy me. I went to Kavar jewelry and didn't see anything at all that I would even consider ploppin down on my finger. There was another store on the upper level right across from Coles (make a mental note Boy) that I liked. The sales person was friendly and very helpful. She's a English lady named Trish. I realized today that if you don't know what you want before hand, then you'll just be lost when the salesperson starts asking the particulars: price range, solitaire, white or yellow gold, do you want a set, and so on and so on.

Pain is the Name of the Game

I am sick. How this happen is anyone's guess. My body aches, I keep a roll of toilet paper by my bed, and I'm starting to wonder if there's a limit to how many halls you can take in a ten minute period. I got up this morning to my mom looking at me as if death had now taken resident inside my body. I had a crappy sleep, since I woke up every couple of hours. I just came back from the bank. That was a trek in it self. Usually it takes me ten minutes to walk to Queen St. Today it took me twenty. I was sweating so hard inside of the bank I just wanted to stretch out on the nice cold floor. I knew there was no way I would be able to walk my aching body back home, and I had missed the bus; so I took a cab home. I spent five dollars on a two minute ride, but it was money well spent. Time for me to take some more meds.

To Shave Or Not To Shave

I was online in a chatroom, when this guy PM me. The conversation at first was the basics: How are you?, What did you do today?, blah blah blah. Then the guy asked if I checked out his profile. For some reason I hadn't done so already, so I told him to hold on while I gave it a quick peek. That's when I noticed his name; shavedballsandass (yes you read that right). Needless to say I was in utter shock when I viewed his pictures. His dick looked just weird without any hair. Why would a guy do that? It's one thing to trim/maintain the hair down there, but to shave it all of. It's just not my cup of tea. This guy is married, has kids and with a wife who is VERY open to all his sexual needs. But my question is why is he online chatting to women and showing it ALL for everyone to see, when he has a wife who gives him everything? And is that considered cheating, especially if the wife doesn't know?. You gotta watch out for these chatrooms ladies because some guys are just plain nasty showing pictures of what they do by themselves up on the internet. I'm surprised his profile hasn't been locked off yet.

Rings and Such Things

I was having this interesting conversation with the Boy last night. He was asking about engagement rings; the price, size, and whether or not have I looked at engagement rings before. I've never done that personally. I guess it's something I've never really thought about. I know a lot of girls have there whole wedding planned already and are not even in a serious relationship. The most I've thought is that I'll like to get married in a church. That's as far as my planning has gotten. Last night I did a lil checking and came up with this: Pretty impressive, I know. The way things are expensive now a days a person would have to start saving for a wedding from when there at least 20. Or maybe have some rich parents, or a big ass loan from the bank. That's how it goes sometimes.