Say Aah

Yesterday was vday and against my better judgement I went out for dinner. Obviously, me thinking I need to be less judgemental was incorrect and I need to call people on their bullshit.

At the end of last month I started back on trying to eat better and trying to lose some weight. I am happy to say I am down 4.5 lbs. But I'm pretty sure I've gained back 2 lbs this week from all the food the lady I sit beside has been providing me with all week. I love me some yummy food.

I cannot wait for my taxes to be done so I can payoff some waaaaayyyyy overdue bills.

I've gotten back into playing my Wii. I guess I just needed some new addictive games to play.

It has been weird not being able to talk to SW everyday like we normally do. I'm happy that she's on this amazing trip -most of which I would most likely say "why are you trying to kill me for" :). Usually I'm the listener, but this week so much has happened and she is unavailable to hear my trials and tribulations. Can't even talk with The Boy this week, since he is in study/sleep mode this week (kick ass on your test).

Can't wait for Friday. Food, drinks, dancing and good company. Did I mention drinks? Just checking.

Does she not do a much better job than Trey.Songz?

Say What Now

I had a really good weekend. Hanged out with G.I. Joe Friday and Saturday. I even went to lunch with The Boy yesterday. A bit surprising huh.

I realized it is rare to find that repore with someone and it still remain strong no matter the challenges life may bring to the situation. It is also rare for G.I. Joe and I to spend time just the two of us. It made me think of the times in the beginning where if SW left the room, the conversation was dead and it became slightly awkward. The awkwardness of not knowing what to talk about, or really what the other person's interests are. But now, we can talk about whatever, crack jokes and enjoy each others company (this reminded me I have to watch Fringe).

Some of the most memorable comments of the weekend:
"Is that your dick I feel poking me in my back?"
"These are a little cunty too"
"It's like she's this white, conservative member of the tea party"
" I always talk loud......I think my hearing is off"

Hmmmm

Sometimes you have to let go of your grievances just a little, to see if its all still worth the blood, sweat and tears; and heartache.

Asshole Week

1. I've managed to only raise my voice at one person this week (and it was a stranger)
   
2. I'm hoping to get more than 5 hours of sleep. Which would most likely help my current state of crankiness
3. It's hard to know what is the right choice
4. I've also managed not to say those gut punching comments swimming in my head. We'll see how long that lasts
5. I listened to A Strange Arrangement today and I could relate to what he was singing about
6. Volcanic Sunlight (you can check this off my to do list SW) was also played today. I enjoyed it a lot more than his previous albums
   

The Whole Truth

• I don't know how to make things better
• Words are just that until you back them up with action
• The pills and alcohol combo is a constant voice in my head. It's not as loud, but it's still there
• I have moments of joy but they need to be more consistent
• I'm giving less. Why get mad and stressed when things remain the same
• I feel that I should be more upbeat
• Most of the time I just lie or I'm not even sure how to respond when I'm asked "how are you". Simple question not so simple answer
• I feel tired and older way beyond my years
• Tomorrow is Friday. Yay!!!!
  

Jill Scott - "Hear My Call" (Official Video)

How I Met Your Father Family Guy parody of how i met your mother

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Thank you.

That is all.

Thoughts of the Day

1. Still not in the holiday spirit, and to be blunt I just don't give a fuck
2. Old people need to sit their ass down
3. I work too hard for my humble earnings
4. I need a change
5. I'm learning not to expect as much but it still makes me a little sad that this is so
   
6. I wish I had a plane ticket for 2012
7. I need to make friends with a massage therapist

Let's Talk About

I have a lot going on in my head. My issue is that I don't know how to start a conversation to unload. I'm almost at my max. I see the signs.